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| | | I had this strange dream last night that I was hidding from these guys wearing all black army type things and carying guns I was crouching in this room and I think Carmen was with me.
I was watching them pass and i moved slightly and one of them heard me and came in. He pointed the gun at me and the red light thing hit my ear and I could feel my ear getting hot
I began to cry and freak out. I cried for him not to kill me and i was sobbing and pleading, and he looked at me and said "Listen i have been doing this for a long time. Don't die with fear, die thinking of something good. Its much better to go that way i promise"...and i woke up.
In some lights yes the fact that i was going to die sucked. But in some ways he gave me a great message...when the time comes to let go whether it be life or anything... don't do it with fear and regret, do it and smile and remeber the good that was there. If i died when he shot me freaking out and pleading to live it wasn't going to change the fact i was going to die. But if i just took that time to smile and think about the good... then i would leave with a moment of happiness and not regret. I would die the better way out of the two.
But it sucked that he was going to shot me.
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